its really been cold today not in a bad way only that i did the most outrageous thing, took a boda in the morning to work and got all the lotion on my legs and knees run down, washed up in the annoying drizzles,i wished i had slept. i woke up in like 10 phases, set my alarm for 6am, i woke up at 4am hearing water trickle out of the tap out side my house and thought for a foggy sleepy second someone had actually clumbered over my wall in need of water and was afetching!
so i dragged me sleepiness outta bed just to check (you never know). opened the front door and squinted in the dark for clarity to no avail. declined the urge to go on a 'nancy drew sleuth hunt' and decided it was the rain.
dragged myself back to bed and stared out across my bed to my wardrobe, partially open and shadows from the pale light outside played images in my mind and on it (the drawer)
looked like a squatting figure. so i gropped for my ka-torchi phone and turned it on to make sure i wasnt seeing things...i was seeing things.
second phase was 6am, the alarm jerked me from some crazy dream where i found my friend's girl seeing another fella and i was sad i had to witness it coz it meant i had to tell him she didnt love him like he thought. breaking his heart was so vivid, i woke up disturbed, then my eye lids felt heavier than lid and with the thought of having to be up early to do what my producer wanted me to do, i slipped into another drugged slumber.
third phase 6.30 am. i hate mornings, i hate working, and besides its still dark outside. i culculated how long it would take me to get dressed and out of the house to go cover the story i was to cover and i figured by 8.30am i would make it...so another 30 minutes wouldn't be bad....
fourth phase 6.45
okay atleast turn on the heater, sleep as the water warms
fifth phase 7.15
okay get up now, water warm ,you shall surely be late.
so i dragged myself up out of bed feeling drugged, abnormally tired and totally sleepy, had someone fed me to sleeping pills the night before? i couldnt shake it off. so i turn up the water, its mighty hot and then make a beeline for my couch...sleep abit while the water fills up in the basin...
sixth phase
it took that long and within me i swore i would get home and hope into bed immediately.
its 8:11 pm, am about to go in for the bulletin and i am still savouring those thoughts.
its been a cold day.
a cold sombre day
it was colder on the inside of me too
maybe thats why waking up was work.
it always is...but today...was a pulitzer prize winner!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
hearts a-breaking
(I'll get over it) MISS ELAINEOUS
She came over last night
And said she wanted to talk
But I didn't think she seemed herself
She wore my favorite blue shirt
And tonight I knew
I didn't wanna be with anyone else
And then the next 10 minutes
Of my life were a blur
I couldn't believe what she said
She said she thought that we might be better off friends
I said I thought I'd be better off dead
Knees are shaking
And these palms are sweating
While this heart is breaking
Can this be ordinary love?
Whoa Whoa
Just close your eyes, it'll all be over soon
Now I'm sitting here, trying to find inside
All the right words to say
But I'm still choking from the fumes
From when she drove away
(lyrics from EVERYDAY SUNDAY)
then the chick part of it
WISHES
The saddest thing is you could be anything, that you could want.
We could've been everything, but now we're not.
Now it's not anything at all.
The hardest part was getting this close to you
and giving up this dream I built with you.
A fairy tale that isn't coming true.
You've got some growing up to do.
*CHORUS*
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts,
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.
After all the things you put me through,
tell me why I'm still in love with you.
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call?
You broke my heart, I'm taking it back from you.
And taking back the life I gave to you.
Life goes on before and after you.
I've got some growing up to do.
*CHORUS*
It's time I say my last goodbye.
Goodbye, Goodbye, It's time I say my last goodbye.
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts,
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and
just say my last goodbye
its time i said my last goodbye.
Goodbye, Goodbye, It's time I say my last goodbye.
its time i said my last goodbye.
Goodbye, Goodbye, It's time I say my last goodbye.
(lyrics from SUPERCHIC(K))
She came over last night
And said she wanted to talk
But I didn't think she seemed herself
She wore my favorite blue shirt
And tonight I knew
I didn't wanna be with anyone else
And then the next 10 minutes
Of my life were a blur
I couldn't believe what she said
She said she thought that we might be better off friends
I said I thought I'd be better off dead
Knees are shaking
And these palms are sweating
While this heart is breaking
Can this be ordinary love?
Whoa Whoa
Just close your eyes, it'll all be over soon
Now I'm sitting here, trying to find inside
All the right words to say
But I'm still choking from the fumes
From when she drove away
(lyrics from EVERYDAY SUNDAY)
then the chick part of it
WISHES
The saddest thing is you could be anything, that you could want.
We could've been everything, but now we're not.
Now it's not anything at all.
The hardest part was getting this close to you
and giving up this dream I built with you.
A fairy tale that isn't coming true.
You've got some growing up to do.
*CHORUS*
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts,
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.
After all the things you put me through,
tell me why I'm still in love with you.
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call?
You broke my heart, I'm taking it back from you.
And taking back the life I gave to you.
Life goes on before and after you.
I've got some growing up to do.
*CHORUS*
It's time I say my last goodbye.
Goodbye, Goodbye, It's time I say my last goodbye.
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts,
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and
just say my last goodbye
its time i said my last goodbye.
Goodbye, Goodbye, It's time I say my last goodbye.
its time i said my last goodbye.
Goodbye, Goodbye, It's time I say my last goodbye.
(lyrics from SUPERCHIC(K))
Monday, March 30, 2009
sorry i got to bore your lungs but....
i totally love this song. when you can get to listen to it.
KJ-52 - Revenge Of The Nerds
Artist: KJ-52 lyrics
Album: Collaborations
Year: 2002
Revenge Of The Nerds :
(feat. Pigeon John)
Kj In The Place To Be
And Pigeon John Is The Boy You'll Need To See
Five Two Is A Truth You See And Pj Got The Hands Up Instantly.
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
Im Back Man And At Getting Good Grades Im A Rat Man
Been Slammed Since The Dayview Of Mrs.Pacman
But Lady And Gents They Keep On Dising Me Because My Momma Didnt Have Dope Or Ever Saw Me.
Or Guess, Guess We Didnt Ever Have To Shop At Walmart.For Less For School Clothes But Then I Got Bagged On The Rest.
In History I Couldent Fit In I Was To Skinny And Didnt Have A Penny Within
My Pocket So Then They Sent Me To The Loser Section Collection Rejection
But Whos's The Man Now?
Still Not Me
No Matter How Old I Get Ill Still Be Geek.
Same Old Kid They Picked On Me Everyday
And Every Girl I Crushed On Secretly.
But Thats Okay Th Nerds Always Win In The End
Cause Where The Ones Who Make The Money And We Secretly Grin.
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
I grew up in inglewood a little brown boy
Back in the day I used to rock the mc hammer pants
Jump in the middle of the party bust the running man
Doing the roger rabbit at the middle school dance
Got my man next to the bleachers now that's where we stand
Walk up to the girl like "now will you dance with me?"
She's like "well listen you'll never ever have a chance with me
I got a boyfriend and he's at like six foot three
250 pounds and he could beat you up in his sleep
And I'm like "well really what's that got to do with me?"
I don't see him around here so why don't you just come with me
I'll get you some fruit punch maybe some cookies
I got the new vanilla ice tape how can you not love me?
She's like "well first off all your pants is straight ugly
You can't dance and your personality just bug's me
So back up off me cause I really got's to let you know
That my boyfriend's right over there ohh I got to go
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
Had straight hair and I rocked corduroy
Walked down venice way in my own way
Wasn't very popular with the girls in 5th grade
They used to call me nerd
That was even if they used to call me at all
Across the school hall I put my head and thought
What could I do to pursue and fought
In my own mind was a struggle of sorts
School was a game and I was off court
On the bench and the coach wouldn't let me off once
I sat in the corner of the yard like a dunce
And all I ever wanted was the girl to have lunch
Maybe in the cafeteria with some punch
But it didn't happen I didn't have heart
Cause I knew how it would end from the start and then I asked..
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
When I was growing up it was hard to be happy
Kids knock the books out my hand and make fun of my acne (exactly)
Give me a wedgie while they throw spitballs at me
And stuff me in my own locker and laugh at me
(Ahhhh ha..) oh you think that's real funny
Cause I'm 5 foot with huge feet and I dress crummy
And all the school bullies want to just take my lunch money
C'mon man I only got a dollar twenty
Ya know ya life is just really sad man
When you play dodge ball your picked as the last man
And ya run as fast as ya can just like a mad man
Cause the football team wants to throw you in the trash can
So really will this madness ever end
Really will the nerd ever get revenge?
Will this girl call me back at around ten?
Will you go out with me? I just want to be friends
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
Now days I'm a little older plus a little bolder
But it seems like I just can't get over
You ever have a day where nothing goes right
Well that just seems to be the story of my whole entire life
So anybody out there know what I mean?
To feel like your third string on a football team?
And ya never ever gonna reach any of your dreams?
And your only hope is making onion rings at burger king
But now a days a lot of things done changed
Since christ came into my life now and just rearranged
The way I look at myself son it aint the same
I drive in a whole 'nother lane going against the grain
I know it might just seem a little strange
The fact remains I changed when I called on his name
So call me a nerd call me lame it don't matter to me
See all I need to know is that my wife will dance with me
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
Look At My Grandma She's Krumpin To The Beat
Shes Krumpin To The Beat Every Single Day A Week
Kj In The Place To Be And Im Pigeon John Flowin Easily
You Call Me A Nerd You're A Little Dork
Im Out Yall
okay am out too.
KJ-52 - Revenge Of The Nerds
Artist: KJ-52 lyrics
Album: Collaborations
Year: 2002
Revenge Of The Nerds :
(feat. Pigeon John)
Kj In The Place To Be
And Pigeon John Is The Boy You'll Need To See
Five Two Is A Truth You See And Pj Got The Hands Up Instantly.
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
Im Back Man And At Getting Good Grades Im A Rat Man
Been Slammed Since The Dayview Of Mrs.Pacman
But Lady And Gents They Keep On Dising Me Because My Momma Didnt Have Dope Or Ever Saw Me.
Or Guess, Guess We Didnt Ever Have To Shop At Walmart.For Less For School Clothes But Then I Got Bagged On The Rest.
In History I Couldent Fit In I Was To Skinny And Didnt Have A Penny Within
My Pocket So Then They Sent Me To The Loser Section Collection Rejection
But Whos's The Man Now?
Still Not Me
No Matter How Old I Get Ill Still Be Geek.
Same Old Kid They Picked On Me Everyday
And Every Girl I Crushed On Secretly.
But Thats Okay Th Nerds Always Win In The End
Cause Where The Ones Who Make The Money And We Secretly Grin.
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
I grew up in inglewood a little brown boy
Back in the day I used to rock the mc hammer pants
Jump in the middle of the party bust the running man
Doing the roger rabbit at the middle school dance
Got my man next to the bleachers now that's where we stand
Walk up to the girl like "now will you dance with me?"
She's like "well listen you'll never ever have a chance with me
I got a boyfriend and he's at like six foot three
250 pounds and he could beat you up in his sleep
And I'm like "well really what's that got to do with me?"
I don't see him around here so why don't you just come with me
I'll get you some fruit punch maybe some cookies
I got the new vanilla ice tape how can you not love me?
She's like "well first off all your pants is straight ugly
You can't dance and your personality just bug's me
So back up off me cause I really got's to let you know
That my boyfriend's right over there ohh I got to go
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
Had straight hair and I rocked corduroy
Walked down venice way in my own way
Wasn't very popular with the girls in 5th grade
They used to call me nerd
That was even if they used to call me at all
Across the school hall I put my head and thought
What could I do to pursue and fought
In my own mind was a struggle of sorts
School was a game and I was off court
On the bench and the coach wouldn't let me off once
I sat in the corner of the yard like a dunce
And all I ever wanted was the girl to have lunch
Maybe in the cafeteria with some punch
But it didn't happen I didn't have heart
Cause I knew how it would end from the start and then I asked..
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
When I was growing up it was hard to be happy
Kids knock the books out my hand and make fun of my acne (exactly)
Give me a wedgie while they throw spitballs at me
And stuff me in my own locker and laugh at me
(Ahhhh ha..) oh you think that's real funny
Cause I'm 5 foot with huge feet and I dress crummy
And all the school bullies want to just take my lunch money
C'mon man I only got a dollar twenty
Ya know ya life is just really sad man
When you play dodge ball your picked as the last man
And ya run as fast as ya can just like a mad man
Cause the football team wants to throw you in the trash can
So really will this madness ever end
Really will the nerd ever get revenge?
Will this girl call me back at around ten?
Will you go out with me? I just want to be friends
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
Now days I'm a little older plus a little bolder
But it seems like I just can't get over
You ever have a day where nothing goes right
Well that just seems to be the story of my whole entire life
So anybody out there know what I mean?
To feel like your third string on a football team?
And ya never ever gonna reach any of your dreams?
And your only hope is making onion rings at burger king
But now a days a lot of things done changed
Since christ came into my life now and just rearranged
The way I look at myself son it aint the same
I drive in a whole 'nother lane going against the grain
I know it might just seem a little strange
The fact remains I changed when I called on his name
So call me a nerd call me lame it don't matter to me
See all I need to know is that my wife will dance with me
Would You Please Would You Dance With Me
And Darlin Would You Please Take A Chance With Me.
I See You Over There With The Jocks
I See You Over There With All The Rich Boys
I See You Over There With All The Pretty Girls And Now Im Askin One Thing.
Look At My Grandma She's Krumpin To The Beat
Shes Krumpin To The Beat Every Single Day A Week
Kj In The Place To Be And Im Pigeon John Flowin Easily
You Call Me A Nerd You're A Little Dork
Im Out Yall
okay am out too.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
learning wisdom
i really have nothing to write, its bad like that,
but i simply want to make it 7 articles this month at least prolly force of habit, so i am writing
oh, and i found something in my journal that carries me through my self condemnation moments, my 'how' moments, generaly all my depressing moments and it makes me believe that God loves me, i am not as bad as i think i am, heck, its why he died for me,so he can look me in the eyes everyday even after i ve wallowed in my own mess and weakness and he aint seeing it, all i am seeing is the love in his eyes, the love that gives me hope to be better coz he sees me a far off from my sin and failings. he sees who i ought to be.
and i work towards it, becauses Somebody believes that Iam not what i do, i am Who he Knows Me to be and he will get me there,i dont have to worry coz Its his LIFE goal to get me there, thats why he died for Me.
i rest in that Knowledge, heal in the Love that was crowned with thorns, lashed, beaten, hated, abandoned.
some one loved me enough to take my beatings!
'Wisdom is the knowledge and ability to make the right choices at the right time. so how do you acess wisdom for living? the greatest wisdom comes from God. meditating on His Word will bring you wisdom. wisdom comes from experience; as you mature you learn from your experience. this includes learning from your mistakes, weaknesses and problems.... As Compost makes the soil richer, so even weaknesses, mistakes, problems, detours and losses can enrich your life and help you cultivate wisdom. wisdom isn't about how smart you are, or that you always make the right choices. its about learning to understand God's compassionate ways.- checklist for life for women
have a fab weekend and remember you are better that what you do, you are not what you do, inside in a fabulous person that needs to grow and let loose.
but i simply want to make it 7 articles this month at least prolly force of habit, so i am writing
oh, and i found something in my journal that carries me through my self condemnation moments, my 'how' moments, generaly all my depressing moments and it makes me believe that God loves me, i am not as bad as i think i am, heck, its why he died for me,so he can look me in the eyes everyday even after i ve wallowed in my own mess and weakness and he aint seeing it, all i am seeing is the love in his eyes, the love that gives me hope to be better coz he sees me a far off from my sin and failings. he sees who i ought to be.
and i work towards it, becauses Somebody believes that Iam not what i do, i am Who he Knows Me to be and he will get me there,i dont have to worry coz Its his LIFE goal to get me there, thats why he died for Me.
i rest in that Knowledge, heal in the Love that was crowned with thorns, lashed, beaten, hated, abandoned.
some one loved me enough to take my beatings!
'Wisdom is the knowledge and ability to make the right choices at the right time. so how do you acess wisdom for living? the greatest wisdom comes from God. meditating on His Word will bring you wisdom. wisdom comes from experience; as you mature you learn from your experience. this includes learning from your mistakes, weaknesses and problems.... As Compost makes the soil richer, so even weaknesses, mistakes, problems, detours and losses can enrich your life and help you cultivate wisdom. wisdom isn't about how smart you are, or that you always make the right choices. its about learning to understand God's compassionate ways.- checklist for life for women
have a fab weekend and remember you are better that what you do, you are not what you do, inside in a fabulous person that needs to grow and let loose.
Monday, March 23, 2009
?
i was thinking the other night, if a guy who had 5 wives got born again, who would he stay married to?
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
family portrait
smile
this is your best picture,
john, move closer to Lena.
thats it Grandad...but not too much
gran ma is still alive, next to you.
hold the baby,mona,
ooops did he just pupu?
where are the twins?
still messing with soap suds?
bring them in naked-the merrier the picture
urgh! this camera
anyway call teopista,
she is really family now.
mom, please dont go,
it will be over in a moment.
dad, hold mom's hand and throw the cigar away
aaahhhh, are we ready?
dont cry Cous Cous,
pick Ham up, he can crawl after the picture
some one take the cat out...
okay, okay! he can stay
stop it you two! grown men elbowing each other!
stay close or you will be cut out,
wanda, is that your best dress?
oh dear,
we are this many?
well, smile!
yes like that!
now say, Cassava!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
an excerpt
since i am on leave i am so totally lazy and not in thinking mode but i thought this could keep you company, ( grab that coffee mug and bananas...)
will you keep me? she looked at him through wide innocent eyes, needing badly to be loved and accepted by him.
Hans knew that and he smiled, warming up inside. he did not know why for a split moment he thought he had lost his 'fan,'what kept his ego flattered.
she still loved him
of course i will keep you, Nattie, you know i will, dont you? he soothed her as he caressed her arm and pulled her close holding her to him in a bear cuddly hug. you know that its always been you and i, dont listen to those girls, they are jealous . actually Pamela asked me out the other night and i told her i was with you, how could she dare flaunt her self like that, moreover your best friend....
he cooed into her ears as she curled up drinking in from his poisoned honeyed lips, the lies, the treachery... and fell asleep vowing vengeance on Pamela
he watched her sleep awhile on the couch caressing her arm. she was so sweet, so innocent, an angel
he didnt want to think of how evil he was...no, besides she liked him, dint she? he couldnt hurt her by telling her off...and she was pretty, damn pretty! so much prettier and younger than Yvette and she made him feel young and strong, able to conquer the universe...how could he give her up to another...not yet...not yet
Yvette...what if Yvette found out..
he panicked abit then shook it off
no,Yvette wouldnt find out.
Yvette was strong, bold and a great lover, he saw his kids in her eyes...he saw her by his side forever... his eyes surveyed the little body curled up in his arms on the couch, but Nattie...Nattie...
what am i going to do with you Nattie? she was like a flower starting to bloom, petals unfolding shyly bit by bit, that beauty and innocence had held him captive and he wanted her...not enough to see his kids in her eyes though but enough to be her first. she took his breathe away.
but Yvette... strong, vivacious, passionate, wild, mature and independent...aaah Yvette...
the phone in his pocket vibrated . he did not have to pick it to know who it was
'hey?'
he cooed into the mouth piece
"baby, you coming home tonight?" Yvette asked huskily
"no still at mom's, her head still hurts, stepped out to get pills,"
'oh okay,' she said ,'love you.'
'love you too,'
he hung up , his brother had covered up well for him, Yvette was smart but she trusted him too. but he wasnt taking chances.
his eyes scanned the room and he thought , not tonight, he would wait like a vulture, patiently untill she gave in to him...untill she was too in love with him to think she needed to keep herself for marriage...but tonight he would hold her as she slept.
just hold her.
in other news
people, i need a pet, any recommendations... i love dogs but i would like something out of the ordinary like an orangutan...please look in that direction... except snake!
will you keep me? she looked at him through wide innocent eyes, needing badly to be loved and accepted by him.
Hans knew that and he smiled, warming up inside. he did not know why for a split moment he thought he had lost his 'fan,'what kept his ego flattered.
she still loved him
of course i will keep you, Nattie, you know i will, dont you? he soothed her as he caressed her arm and pulled her close holding her to him in a bear cuddly hug. you know that its always been you and i, dont listen to those girls, they are jealous . actually Pamela asked me out the other night and i told her i was with you, how could she dare flaunt her self like that, moreover your best friend....
he cooed into her ears as she curled up drinking in from his poisoned honeyed lips, the lies, the treachery... and fell asleep vowing vengeance on Pamela
he watched her sleep awhile on the couch caressing her arm. she was so sweet, so innocent, an angel
he didnt want to think of how evil he was...no, besides she liked him, dint she? he couldnt hurt her by telling her off...and she was pretty, damn pretty! so much prettier and younger than Yvette and she made him feel young and strong, able to conquer the universe...how could he give her up to another...not yet...not yet
Yvette...what if Yvette found out..
he panicked abit then shook it off
no,Yvette wouldnt find out.
Yvette was strong, bold and a great lover, he saw his kids in her eyes...he saw her by his side forever... his eyes surveyed the little body curled up in his arms on the couch, but Nattie...Nattie...
what am i going to do with you Nattie? she was like a flower starting to bloom, petals unfolding shyly bit by bit, that beauty and innocence had held him captive and he wanted her...not enough to see his kids in her eyes though but enough to be her first. she took his breathe away.
but Yvette... strong, vivacious, passionate, wild, mature and independent...aaah Yvette...
the phone in his pocket vibrated . he did not have to pick it to know who it was
'hey?'
he cooed into the mouth piece
"baby, you coming home tonight?" Yvette asked huskily
"no still at mom's, her head still hurts, stepped out to get pills,"
'oh okay,' she said ,'love you.'
'love you too,'
he hung up , his brother had covered up well for him, Yvette was smart but she trusted him too. but he wasnt taking chances.
his eyes scanned the room and he thought , not tonight, he would wait like a vulture, patiently untill she gave in to him...untill she was too in love with him to think she needed to keep herself for marriage...but tonight he would hold her as she slept.
just hold her.
in other news
people, i need a pet, any recommendations... i love dogs but i would like something out of the ordinary like an orangutan...please look in that direction... except snake!
Friday, March 06, 2009
wow!
BREATHE
lift your eyes..
breathe, when i say your name and our eyes meet
breathe...take my hand, i am near
i am not going nowhere,
unless nowhere leads to you
breathe,
i am here forever.
am in a mushy sorta mood now and this just spewed out of me after listening to babyface's not going anywhere...i totally love that song,
everytime i look up love quotations on the net, the ones that stand out are from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin: and i can see why, they are the definition of WOW! Check this out!
"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
- Captain Corelli's Mandolin.
now if you think it aint nice at all, its kawa but this was the truest description of love i ever found out of my usual self-help books on love and i felt like shoving it down everyone's throat especially those that think love is a feeling, i beg to defer because in all my 27 years and i was running round like a headless chicken professing love for a mister so and so, the feelings fizzled out and i was looking for love again..till i realised...this....love is a choice after the chemical animal instinctive reaction to hormones called 'being in love' and i saw mister-do-me-right's true colours, i needed to choose if i wanted to live with him; smelly socks and untidiness and sweet smile all rolled in one package or i wanted the perfect take- my- breathe away relationship.
i was often on the road looking for that 'high' and i never found it. wild goose chase, me tell you.
in other news i am on leave! and feel like i am breathing again!
nice weekend people, mine shall be pork-benjamin -button- filled!
"Love is the beauty of the soul." --St. Augustine
p.s. love the brandy song 'wow' listening to it now, playing it now
lift your eyes..
breathe, when i say your name and our eyes meet
breathe...take my hand, i am near
i am not going nowhere,
unless nowhere leads to you
breathe,
i am here forever.
am in a mushy sorta mood now and this just spewed out of me after listening to babyface's not going anywhere...i totally love that song,
everytime i look up love quotations on the net, the ones that stand out are from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin: and i can see why, they are the definition of WOW! Check this out!
"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
- Captain Corelli's Mandolin.
now if you think it aint nice at all, its kawa but this was the truest description of love i ever found out of my usual self-help books on love and i felt like shoving it down everyone's throat especially those that think love is a feeling, i beg to defer because in all my 27 years and i was running round like a headless chicken professing love for a mister so and so, the feelings fizzled out and i was looking for love again..till i realised...this....love is a choice after the chemical animal instinctive reaction to hormones called 'being in love' and i saw mister-do-me-right's true colours, i needed to choose if i wanted to live with him; smelly socks and untidiness and sweet smile all rolled in one package or i wanted the perfect take- my- breathe away relationship.
i was often on the road looking for that 'high' and i never found it. wild goose chase, me tell you.
in other news i am on leave! and feel like i am breathing again!
nice weekend people, mine shall be pork-benjamin -button- filled!
"Love is the beauty of the soul." --St. Augustine
p.s. love the brandy song 'wow' listening to it now, playing it now
Thursday, March 05, 2009
ONE OF THOSE DAYS
Its been incredulously hot, these past few days the weather's been acting up not making up its mind and reminding me of me more and more each day....one minute am happy, then next sad, want chicken theni am sure i cnt stand it and want beans, i get home dog tired to sleep and wish i could stay up all night because somehow...i cant sleep.
erratic..
thats me
maybe moody,
i donno
but then when i get like that and i dont want to go to bed or hate to think i got to wake up and i pray in between sleep and wake that its not morning too soon and maybe its only midnight after 8 hours, i know something is up.
ever done a emotional intelligence test? i did.
amazing results
i scored highest all round especially in internal awareness (perception) meaning i am highly aware of what goes on in me, deeply sensitive to the things that affect me.
true
thus my erratic mood.
usually when i get like this,i stop...freeze time within...
i let the word revolve around me until i probe to the root of my discomfort and deal with it then press the PLAY button.i dont care if it takes months or years or a minute. the issue here is it's a great PIN in my TOE and i gotta jerk it out.
i read this book, a sequel to the gunslinger (Steven King) called Drawing of the Three.
there is a point the gun slinger fails to understand what exactly is going on, one minute he is drawn form his swash buckling western texan world in 1890 something and thrown into 1980 to pick some drug addict, then spiralled back aways to the 50's for a schizophernic negro babe ...his team fully drawn... and there is the boy Jake who i never meet but feel he is a strongly necessary force in the book, i only know he is lost between worlds and the Gun slinger misses him but he is to play a huge part in the finale....so anyway in all this mix (surely if you were the one going through this even you you would have dizzy emotional spells) so as he crosses the desert with the schizo,drug guy and two fingers less bitten off by crazy man-eating lobsters, he falls into that mood
and doesnt eat for 4 days to try sort out whats up, why him? what did he have to do with such useless people that needed rehab and majorly his guilt over the 'death' of the boy Jake that he felt was his doing...demons to deal with. he doesnt sleep, he doesnt eat...he needs answers
and i was amazed that someone else went through the spells i go through to sort out stuff unclear or deal with pain or puzzles...though he was a strange character, i believe that every writer writes what he knows and Steven King must know or at least seen people like that....
are you like that?
erratic..
thats me
maybe moody,
i donno
but then when i get like that and i dont want to go to bed or hate to think i got to wake up and i pray in between sleep and wake that its not morning too soon and maybe its only midnight after 8 hours, i know something is up.
ever done a emotional intelligence test? i did.
amazing results
i scored highest all round especially in internal awareness (perception) meaning i am highly aware of what goes on in me, deeply sensitive to the things that affect me.
true
thus my erratic mood.
usually when i get like this,i stop...freeze time within...
i let the word revolve around me until i probe to the root of my discomfort and deal with it then press the PLAY button.i dont care if it takes months or years or a minute. the issue here is it's a great PIN in my TOE and i gotta jerk it out.
i read this book, a sequel to the gunslinger (Steven King) called Drawing of the Three.
there is a point the gun slinger fails to understand what exactly is going on, one minute he is drawn form his swash buckling western texan world in 1890 something and thrown into 1980 to pick some drug addict, then spiralled back aways to the 50's for a schizophernic negro babe ...his team fully drawn... and there is the boy Jake who i never meet but feel he is a strongly necessary force in the book, i only know he is lost between worlds and the Gun slinger misses him but he is to play a huge part in the finale....so anyway in all this mix (surely if you were the one going through this even you you would have dizzy emotional spells) so as he crosses the desert with the schizo,drug guy and two fingers less bitten off by crazy man-eating lobsters, he falls into that mood
and doesnt eat for 4 days to try sort out whats up, why him? what did he have to do with such useless people that needed rehab and majorly his guilt over the 'death' of the boy Jake that he felt was his doing...demons to deal with. he doesnt sleep, he doesnt eat...he needs answers
and i was amazed that someone else went through the spells i go through to sort out stuff unclear or deal with pain or puzzles...though he was a strange character, i believe that every writer writes what he knows and Steven King must know or at least seen people like that....
are you like that?
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
thanks and etc's
thanks for all your contributions people it means alot, meanwhile i be out abit coz i am so busy, lots to do and hardly time to idle at the computer surfing or thinking creatively about my next post but i got them scribbled someewhere in a note book for when i am on leave in like 3 days...then i shall surely nauseate you with aLOT of me, how about that hmmm?
meanwhile enjoy your weeks and be good
i am trying to....
later peeeps!
meanwhile enjoy your weeks and be good
i am trying to....
later peeeps!
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